“If you can’t control your peanut butter, you can’t expect to control your life.” Bill Watterson, author of Calvin and Hobbs (Photo from iStock)
Out of charge.
It’s the Energizer Bunny retiring for the day.
No, it’s a charge card over the limit.
No, it’s me when really I want to be in charge.
The urge to take control was there the minute I hung up from talking to our daughter.
She was walking into the dentist’s office to have an infected wisdom tooth removed. I tried to share as much comfort as I could to calm her and to calm myself.
When the person in the car behind me honked, I realized I was holding up traffic at the green light.
It’s times like these these that act as reality checks for being “out of charge.”
At the light, I thought “One minute things can be fine, and the next, life can be turned upside down.”
Also I thought “How powerless I am over what happens around me, which makes time with loved ones both fragile and valuable.”
I surprised myself with all this reflection over a wisdom tooth. Wonder if that’s where it derived its name?
Ever have those moments when being “out of charge” really hits home?
WRite wHere I’m supposed to be – Sometimes it feels scary to recognize we’re “out of charge.” It’s also strangely comforting when I realize who is.
Aaahhhh! My kids are 21 and 17 (birthdays for 22 and 18 fast approaching) and this is NOT my favorite time of life. I swear I need a day-by-day handbook about, not only how to let go but then how not to let the stress of letting go kill you! I\’m with you all the way on these blog posts! I thought I had faith and then I had kids and learned I had a lot to learn about having faith.
I can tell you it gets easier. Ours are 26 and 27 and we get fewer messy phone calls, have less drama and less worries. But since momhood doens\’t offer retirement, we have a lifetime guarantee that we\’ll need faith. Lots and lots of faith.
Thanks for reading!